It's not the curriculum I'm worried about anymore. I've done my research. I have every single day planned out for the next nine months, in detail. I have field trips planned.
What I'm worried about is considered taboo in the homeschool community. The dreaded "S" word:
Socialization.
I wasn't worried about it until two nights ago, when it hit me like a truck. As it is, we don't live in a neighborhood with kids, so Millie doesn't have the trusty neighborhood friends. Some of my best memories from my youth involved my neighborhood friends. When she was at public school for Kindergarten and 1st, she played with everyone, she never had that one special friend. Although she's in 4-H, a homeschool group, skating, and Sunday school, I worry that she won't be able to form a bond with anyone that turns into a BFF.
Will she ever stay up late watching movies with anyone?
Will she ever make up dance moves to Taylor Swift songs with that special friend?
Will she ever spend hours in the bathroom with BFF putting her hair in curlers?
Will she ever have sleepovers?
I spoke with a friend and experienced homeschool mommy yesterday, and told her about my current state of panic, and she told me there's only one thing more that I could be doing.
Pray.
So, although I'm not really the praying "type", I'm going to do it. Last year I prayed to be a more patient mother. And, while I still need to work on that, I'm going to pray harder that Millie can find that one special friend. I hope it'll help put my mind at ease...